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Have you ever noticed those energy vampires around you? They can be beautiful, intelligent, interesting, and charming. In fact, they usually are. Because if they weren't, we wouldn't get caught in their enchanting webs. How we get caught isn't the point: it's easier to capture an unprepared person than to keep them.

We spend our whole lives trying to arrive at certain understandings and realizations, through our minds. Before we truly feel these things with our entire being, we need to go through something... to hit our heads with something heavy... Suddenly, today I realized that we all play this Matrix game way too seriously. We’ve gotten so absorbed in life, that we’ve started to live it as a game... I take myself too seriously, I’ve become attached to this mask. Why?

Once, I came up with a formula: any interpersonal conflict could be resolved simply by allowing myself to love the person I was in conflict with. To allow pure, universal love – and the conflict would disappear because, as a rule, for a conflict to continue, it needs fuel from both sides.

When I feel bad, I listen closely to myself and to my world, asking myself, "What am I doing wrong?" And the answer always comes. It arrives instantly.

Consciousness expands once, consciousness expands twice, consciousness expands three times. It’s expanded. Like pupils. Like the territory of life. Like the angle of vision. Like the angle of the room. Quietly, I leap out of the corner; the screen fades. 420… onwards with the text…

I'm not a woman. I'm a wind that wants to escape the limits of rituals, politeness, and "have to's".

I've come close. I can feel it. What I've been searching for so long, I think I've almost found. Subconscious substitutions of true beliefs with false ones I want to love. But I'm afraid. Because love brings pain. In the end, I stop wanting to love. I want to love with my heart, but I don't want to with my head.

The game is called “Cat and... Cat.” It’s very old. The main rule is not to let the cat turn into a mouse. Clever, practicing cats train their intelligence on each other. Foolish, selfish cats simply eat the cats who were careless enough to turn into a mouse. Or they themselves turn into mice if the opponent is not stupid. If two cats are foolish, they both turn into mice and live happily ever after until the end of their lives.