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Over the past month, I've been working with a therapist. Never before in my life have I had the opportunity to regularly communicate with a psychologist, at least not for a whole month. All my previous encounters were spontaneous and unplanned, for the most part. This time, I needed to have at least four scheduled sessions.

A strange transformation happened to me. Strange because all other transformations filled me with piggy delight. I would skip and dance, feeling an incredible surge of energy within me. But this time, the transformation brought tranquility.

Last night, unexpectedly, I watched a video of Eckhart Tolle, a fragment of one of his talks. A question from the audience was: "How can I come to terms with the fact that I'm aging, becoming ugly, and unnecessary?"

What does "freeing up space" mean? It's thinking in physical terms and applying that perception system to a sphere that's nonlinear and not three-dimensional.

Any choice made is always right. If you understand why, it becomes horribly simple and easy. Especially for those inclined to reflect on their past actions. Let me explain.

In the psyche of a "healthy" (integrated) individual, the Observer (compassionate, wise, adult) is the Primary personality, while subpersonalities are merely "social roles" we play - worker, spouse, child, parent, friend, - and so on. All these are healthy subpersonalities, and they all play by the Observer's rules.

Reality slowly begins to nudge us, that is, to prove that what surrounds us is just a reflection of what is inside us.

For quite a long time, one inconsistency with my understanding of the world troubled me, which I noticed in the very first film Planet of the Apes. One of the astronauts, captured by the apes during the hunt, George Taylor, retained consciousness, while the other astronaut very quickly lost his human face and began to behave like the other people of that society - like an animal.

I had two beliefs, each of which seemed very logical to me and was confirmed by my life experience and other less significant understandings of the world and life. But they didn't want to work together, that is, there was no logic.

You know how it goes – you read, you read about something, you think you understand it, you intellectually grasp it, like, for example, that childhood traumas can affect us throughout our lives, you see how it works, but it doesn't quite sink in completely, it doesn't become part of your foundational knowledge, your understanding of life.