Posts in Thoughts

We strongly concentrate our understanding of love as a process directed towards one person, whereas love is a state that is available to us at any moment because life is love. We are not open enough if we allow ourselves to squeeze out a tiny bit of love for one person when we can open up to the whole world.

It all happened very quickly. Riku was lucky. He wasn't just the first, he was the first American man I’d interacted with “romantically” after Adam. Actually, I had responded to his ad. He had a nice face.

Stop carrying the longing for communication. I no longer speak of longing for closeness. Stop. That’s it. Forget it. There is no such thing as longing. And even though we all live in a world of people, it is completely normal to enjoy only your own company.

The film was released in 2006. Its unusually unremarkable title hardly captures the essence of the movie. At first, I thought I could compare it to something I had seen before, but then I realized that comparisons are futile.

Sweet, funny, joyful, wonderful, sunny, gentle, strict, sad, delicate, emotional – that’s my mom. I don’t remember her being bad at all.

My flight was at 6:10 AM on Sunday. On the one hand, I planned it this way on purpose because the flight was long, plus there was a three-hour time difference. I had to calculate it all so that I could go for a walk in Manhattan in the evening. I set two alarms so I wouldn’t oversleep, and even set the coffee machine alarm, since I usually wake up from the strong aroma of coffee.

Hooray, hooray, hooray! I finally made it to Santa Barbara and brought back a ton of […]

Even the most beloved person is just a part of my vast, boundless World. To say that they are the entire World means greatly narrowing this boundless World down to just one beloved person. Firstly, it's a conscious global limitation of oneself, depriving oneself of all the possible riches that the World can offer us.

I realized that my desire to be loved faded due to a lack of faith that it was possible (the reason for this lack of faith is not important, but the consequences are) and gradually transformed into a desire to be admired

Suddenly, for the first time in my life, I truly feel like an adult. Simply an adult. And everything has become very simple. Suddenly, while listening to Love Song For A Vampire, I realized that I had spent my whole life searching for the wrong things in love.