Posts in Thoughts

The idea of making a film about how a person meets themselves without traveling in time came to me back in 2008, when I hadn’t seen a single movie that explored this topic in any way.

Reality slowly begins to nudge us, that is, to prove that what surrounds us is just a reflection of what is inside us.

For quite a long time, one inconsistency with my understanding of the world troubled me, which I noticed in the very first film Planet of the Apes. One of the astronauts, captured by the apes during the hunt, George Taylor, retained consciousness, while the other astronaut very quickly lost his human face and began to behave like the other people of that society - like an animal.

I had two beliefs, each of which seemed very logical to me and was confirmed by my life experience and other less significant understandings of the world and life. But they didn't want to work together, that is, there was no logic.

You know how it goes – you read, you read about something, you think you understand it, you intellectually grasp it, like, for example, that childhood traumas can affect us throughout our lives, you see how it works, but it doesn't quite sink in completely, it doesn't become part of your foundational knowledge, your understanding of life.

What is cognitive dissonance? It is the overlay of reality, experienced through personal experience, on a specific paradigm of perceiving this reality.

Thank you... Thank you for opening up to me. Even if just a little bit. You are warm. You want to open up, even though you’re scared, just like everyone else. But your desire to open is stronger than your fear.

It now has become completely clear to me that connection, closeness, and interaction are very important in my life. Perhaps, this is the most important thing in my life. But (after listening to Transurfing) I now think, maybe it's important because I haven't had much of it in my life. Because I'm quite capricious here - I need it, but only a certain kind. Not just anyone. So, after all, it's not some global desire of the soul, not a goal, but rather a means.

It’s a state that has no color or variation. There’s no imprint of what caused this happiness. Whether you ate an ice cream cone or got an A on an exam — sure, the reasons are different, but the happiness itself is exactly the same. Absolutely.

Comfortably settled in the passenger seat next to me, little Anna, freckled and glowing, pushed back a stray lock of her red hair and asked: "So, what's your homework?"